There have been lots of changes going on lately too; in little things mostly. But these little things will have a large effect. So it's exciting.
I recently bought a new mattress, it's like air. I should be able to go pick it up today. But they haven't called yet.
HOW EXCITING!! Yeah, i know it's just a bed, but I **hate** my bed with nearly every fiber in my body...this new one should be much better. :)
And that's just about all the news I have.
Well, I have also been into making play lists on YouTube. They're nothing great, but I want a play list for each type of music that I like, and that's a lot. Here are the categories I have so far : Trance/Ambient Chill/indie Popular and Radio friendly Now that's what I want to hear AKA nostalgia
That’s it so far and not all of them have been created, there are about 40 songs on the Trance playlist as there seems to be a lot of pretty cool trance out there. I like the electronica feel lately. But also I have broadened my horizons as far as music is concerned. I still have "Now that's what I want to hear" but that's mostly the hardcore and rock that I was really into in High school. Lots of Thrice and some Finch, emery and what have. Where as the Trance is mostly ATB a little Paul Van Dyk and one Sylver. Then Chill/indie is more of the DCFC esq. Maybe a little ingrid, of course The Postal Service, Mogwai and The Album leaf, the Shinns and probably the sound track to Nick and Nora. Popular is mostly JT as I have really been feeling him lately, Rhianna and perhaps even some TI! I know! I know! :) Now of course there's going to be a classical play list for those days that you need to slow down. :) I am actually looking to learn the Piano since i have one now. I think I could be able to do it if I dedicate myself.
That's enough about music. You know, I think I am the only one left in the world that doesn't have an IPod or Zune, every time i go to get one i find something better to spend my money on. And the fact that I have lots of music on my phone helps too. But I think next i am planning on saving up for a laptop or a TV. I really want a new TV. I know I don’t really need one just yet, but it's just something that I really want. lol But I will probably just get what I know i need first. So i am just going to save again once my vacay is over. I have also been considering going on a Cruise. They're really not too expensive and I think it would be fun. :) just for 4 days. But then again all there is to do is hit the buffet (from what I hear) and I am not down with that. So I may just find some place else to go or something else to do. I hope though that I make it to NY for a few days, maybe only 2 so i can have time to hang out with as many people as possible.
I feel it. I just felt it. Similar to a shift in the plates of the earth. . . I need to readjust myself. Remain focused, I need to work on that and be dedicated as I know how in many ways I have fallen short. I need to regain my balance and breathe life into my relationship. I know it's possible if you help me. I love you.
By the way it's officially been 13 months since we started dating. How time flies.
I usually like my weird music. . . lately I have been listening to POP! Lol
Here’s my Play list for today 69 (the 69 is Kat's doing)
1. JT – Cry Me a River 2. JT- What goes around 3. JT- My love 4. TI feat. JT – Dead and Gone 5. Rihanna – Rehab 6. TuPac – Dear Mama 7. Brittney Spears – Every time 8. Paramour – Decode 9. Paramour – that’s what you get 10. Paramour – misery business 11. Taylor Swift – Love story 12. Jason Mraz – I’m Yours 13. Kanye West – love lockdown 14. Kanye West – Heartless
So things are good. Just started a new job - I love the benefits!! It's so exciting for me to feel like a adult. LOL, how pathetic. At least I have maintained a good sense of humor over my lack of maturity! LOL. Things are moving along, a year has gone by so fast. I dosn't feel like a Year. I feel like time is moving faster and faster as they years move along. I am so ready to go home right now.
I didn't get as much done as I did yesterday, but I still feel accomplished. Well. . . really looking at it I accomplished just as much if not a little more in the time I have had to work. I mean, I was late 45 mins due to traffic. Now that's crazy, considering I left my house at nearly an hour before i needed to be at work. Every one was late today, lots of people didn't come in at all. Craziness.
Sigh. I have been missing old friends lately. Namely those in other states. . . and that i haven't spoken to in a few years. . . It's wierd still feeling so close to them and I haven't spoken to them in about 3 years now. Wierd. :/ But I do really miss talking to them, IMing. . . and video chating. lol. good times then. :D
Dont you hate it when your washing and you find more lights that need to be washed...but you already WASHED all the light? lol. I hate that. O well. Uh as of lately I am doing good. great. Fantastic! I feel like I have come into my own. So far I have lost 20 pounds and my goal is at least 5 more by the end of December. I am surrounded by good influences and this is my first month to auxillary pioneer. I am already way behind on my hours... so i am afraid that I wont make it. But I am going to try my best. I think I can do it. I am sick. I have been sick off and on for a while (since like...October) and I FINALLY went to the doctor. He said i needed antibiotics because it wont go away by its self. I was hoping that it would! lol. SO yeah 2 months of being sick and I finally go to the doctor. that's about it. The end.
Four years you think for sure That’s all you've got to endure All the total dicks All the stuck up chicks So superficial, so immature Then when you graduate You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT This is the same as where I just came from I thought it was over Aw that’s just great
The whole damn world is just as obsessed With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex, Who‘s got the money, who gets the hunnie's, Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess And you still don’t have the right look And you don’t have the right friends Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends High school never ends
Check out the popular kids You’ll never guess what Jessica did How did Mary Kate lose all that weight And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom’s straight And the only thing that matters Is climbing up that social ladder Still care about your hair and the car you drive Doesn’t matter if you’re sixteen or thirty-five
Reese Witherspoon, She’s the prom queen Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team Jack Black, the clown Brad Pitt, the quarterback Seen it all before I want my money back
The whole damn world is just as obsessed With who’s the best dressed and who’s having sex, Who’s in the clubs and who’s on the drugs, Who’s throwing up before they digest And you still don’t have the right look And you don’t have the right friends And you still listen to the same shit you did back then High school never ends
High school never ends
The whole damn world is just as obsessed With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex, Who‘s got the money, who gets the hotties, Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess And I still don’t have the right look And I still have the same three friends And I’m pretty much the same as I was back then High school never ends
Lyrics Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry You dont know how lovely you are I had to find you, tell you I need you Tell you I set you apart Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions Oh lets go back to the start Running in circles, coming up tails Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy Oh its such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said that it would be this hard Oh take me back to the start I was just guessing at numbers and figures Pulling your puzzles apart Questions of science, science and progress Do not speak as loud as my heart Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me Oh and I rush to the start Running in circles, chasing our tails Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy Oh its such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be so hard Im going back to the start
I want to know your plans and how involved in them I am. When I go to sleep for good, will I be forgiven? And if you want roses, I'll buy a bouquet. If that just won't cut it, well what can I say?
You're what keeps me believing the worlds not gone dead. Strength in my bones put the words in my head. When they pour out to paper, it's all for you, 'cause that's what you do.
I want to know your fears, from your feet to the back of your ears. When they raise the landing gear, will your heart stay here? If you could forgive me for being so brash, you could hit me or whip me, I'd savor each lash.
You're what keeps me believing the worlds not gone dead. Strength in my bones and the words in my head. They pour out to paper, it's all for you, 'cause that's what you do.
No more fighting. This is only a waste of our time. Soon we'll be leaving. Will this strength still be mine?
I'll look out for you, till I die, till I rot. I'll remember you, till I die, till I rot.
You're what keeps me believing the worlds not gone dead. Strength in my bones, put the words in my head. When they pour out to paper, it's all for you..
You're what keeps me believing the worlds not gone dead. Strength in my bones, put the words in my head. When they pour out to paper, it's all for you, 'cause that's what you do.
Whenever i come back, the air on railroad is making the same sounds. And the shop fronts on holly are dirty words (asterisks in for the vowels). We peered through the windows... new bottoms on barstools but the people remain the same, with prices inflating.
As if saved from the gallows. There's a bellow of buzzers and the people stop working and they're all so excited.
Passing through unconscious states. When i awoke i was on the highway.
With your hand on my shoulders, a meaningless movement... a moviescript ending, And the patrons are leaving, leaving.
Now we all know the words were true in the sappiest songs (yes, yes). I'll put them to bed, but they won't sleep, they're just shuffling the sheets, they toss and turn, (you can't begin to get it back).
Passing through unconscious states. When i awoke i was on The onset of a later stage... the headlights are beacons on the highway.
I tried again I fell again to find out for myself It hurts for a life time You picture rests there for a lifetime And for a lifetime I will dream of you I prepare a mantle inside of my heart With your photograph to sooth the scars Unable to be erased unable to be forgotten As I grow older I will dream
threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back, a name in your recollection, thrown down among a million same. difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over when i've looked right through to see you naked and oblivious and you don't see me.but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a fallen angel, the eyes of a tragedy. here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded. but i see through it all and see you. so i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy. oh well. apparently nothing. you don't see me. you don't see me at all.
i'll be the grapes fermented, bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit like a perfect gentleman. i'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick where you will sit and contemplate your day.
i'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning in an open tab when your judgement's on the brink. i'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep. i'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you: you won't have to strain to look into my eyes. i'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat with the collar up so you won't catch cold.
i want to take you far away from the cynics in this town and kiss you on the mouth. we'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene, start a brand new colony where everything will change, we'll give ourselves new names (identities erased.) the sun will heat the ground under our bare feet in this brand new colony. everything will change...
I can hear Joey snoring from here...and i think i'd soon like to do the samee. ... G-ma Zoila is going to get here tomorrow and i know I'll be waken (woken, awaken, awoken - whatever) up early to clean up "spik and span" - that's quickly becomming one of my most hated phrases in life, sort of like "pet peeve" OMG how I hate that word. hah, I'm odd, i know. but that's just me I guess. I need a buddy, or a cork boar. I want one too. a huge one to take up space above my bed. and it'll help me keep track of all my crap. and remind me of thigns too. and I want to get annother journal. . . but seeing as how i dont have cash right now. OH and That company called me for an interview today. I was unable to get back to them because I didn't get the message until 6, and I'm sure no one was there so monday I am going to call and set up an interview. I'm excited and kind of nervouse. It's suppose to pay well and I'm pretty sure that I can handle it. . . i hope I can.